Last night i laid in bed. Crying and talking to God. He brought to my mind 3 good men who have loved me as a woman should be loved. I had never thought of their friendships in those terms. Only now that i am separated from my husband and alone.

Chinh was my best friend in high school. Sergio in college and Kevin after my salvation. Dont get me wrong i had girlfriends but these men were also very good friends.  They all had one thing in common, they loved hanging out with me. 

Years later i have realized that the way they loved me in friendship is how i want to be loved in marriage. Anytime i called any of them, they were available to talk or to go out and do anything with me.

I was not as great a friend to them, but I am comforted because i know these guys are going to be amazing husbands. Always listening, ready to have a conversation and give of their time freely.

It gives me hope to know that if 3 good men loved me like that, then maybe one day i will meet another man like that who i can marry.  And hopefully by then i won’t be such a fool.