About

I started this blog to document publicly God’s deliverance of my strongholds of shame and anxiety.  I’m not fully delivered and I have given up trying. Shame and anxiety are the thorns in my flesh. Oh wait, I forgot self-doubt, shyness, insecuity, second-guessing…and so on.

This blog has instead become a public airing of my life’s many grievances. A public record of how unhappy I can be but also of how good God has been to me. I do tend to post more often when I am miserable though.

This was part of my initial profile but my life has changed since then. On my 3rd attempt at breaking free from my struggles I was pushed into Celebrate Recovery.  I am learning to live my life and all of its blemishes in the light, that is, with other people also working out their salvation with fear and trembling.

 I have been married for 4 years. I have left my marriage twice. I am still married because of who God is. I am learning to let God love my husband through myself. I have an angel girl named Eliana Liz, who is a messenger of God to me. She is teaching me 1 Corinthians 13. Praise the Name of Jesus!